Run the hot water for me

Run the hot water for me
I'm coming home
I lost a war
And I have nowhere to go
any more

But I have to
I have to go back to you
Because
I can't make you sad
I can't make you sad

Run the hot water for me
I need to clean up my body
from blood
from shame
and from the guilt

run the hot water for me


I'm moving to new place, a bigger space so I can start painting, really painting again.

As I felt empty before I still feel empty.


Do I still have somewhere to go?

Beautiful beautiful

Beautiful beautiful

is there somewhere me?

Everyone smiling why are you smiling?

Closed in a body of unfair desires

With caged in a chest heart

which is too heavy to carry

Blind and breathless

with head where are too many doors

opening only to outside

Beautiful beautiful

I am standing there

And I know you are looking at me

And I know I could love you

But you are just thinking

what can you use me for

Beautiful beautiful

I am there with them

Longing to my baby

But my baby's gone

my love is past

There is nobody home

Beautiful beautiful

They are all so beautiful

And I am standing there

And you are looking at me

but there is no me

Because beautiful

I have never been there

~Pola Chérie Beautiful beautiful~

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One day (I'm gonna be free)

Don't close me in a wooden box - she said

The day I left my home his love made me homeless

Burn me with the words I've been carrying whole my life

I don't believe in Jesus Christ I have no place to return One day

Let the wind spread me away - she said

One day you gonna be free

~Pola Chérie One day (I'm gonna be free)~

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Life without You (Magda Biernat Photography)

When I think of us

We were always on the road

Heading from one concert

to the another

wandering and getting lost

It was always all about you

You never let me lead

Don't get me wrong

I didn't want to stop you

I just needed you

to look back

and wait for me

When I couldn't follow your steps

Don't get me wrong

You were the only one I loved

I just couldn't stand the fact

There was something

more important

than me

for you

And I am missing you

Every day of my life

No matter who holds my hand

And how many sweet words

I've been told

You are still the only one

for me

But don't get me wrong

I found my way back

home

without you

I just still can not imagine

there will be no you

waiting

~Pola Chérie Life without You~





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The Garden Of Asleep Soul

Whenever you miss me

I will be expecting you

No matter how many years pass

You will find me there

Whenever you need me

I will be expecting you

No matter how many mistakes

you have made I will be

Like young Werther

A boy who fall in love

for the first time

Whenever you run away from home

I will be there

In my secret garden

Living alone among the roses

No matter how many times you say

you hate me

No matter how many times

you abandon me

I will be there

expecting you

~Pola Chérie The Garden Of Asleep Soul~

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Carry me home

 I was so close when I let you go

I feel so sorry

Couldn't be with you

in my life

Blind desires wanting more

Something pushing me to perform my duties

To live my role in this crazy world

I was so close when I saw you leaving

And I let it go

But I want to be believing

in my life

It was worth it

No matter what will happen

Carry me home

When I die

~Pola Chérie Immortal Longing~

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Inspired by "Stay" by Hurts and editorials:

Backyard Love TheOnes2Watch, M: Saara & Teresa (Brand), P: Ville Varumo, S: Sakke Hytönen, H&M: Marii Sadrak; "Home Alone" A Schön! Magazine (April 2011) / Mastori*Motwary Studio SS2011 collaboration, M: Quinta Witzel, P: Thanassis Krikis; Fashion Editor: Nicholas Georgiou; Numéro #122 M: Nimue Smit, P: Sebastian Kim, Fashion Editor: Charles Varenne ; Flair Italy April 2011 Viaggio A Xitang | Travel Xitang, M: Du Juan, P: Wing Shya, S: Kanako B. Koga; C: fashioncopious.typepad.com, fashiongonerogue.com

Come with me

Come with me, it is too lonely to be lonely

~Where is Mary-Bell?
- Do you know where were we before we were born?
~ I don't
- Neither do I. So I can't tell you where Mary-Bell is

- I am leaving
~ Where?
- Far away
Are you going with me?
Come
Come with me, it is too lonely to be lonely


[Allan Twilight,Edgar Portsnell]
Hagio Moto "Poe no Ichizoku" (ポーの一族 ,"The Poe Family")
(Translated by Pola Chérie)

~Pola Chérie Immortal Longing~

? ; Vogue Italia November 2002, M: Natalia Vodianova, P: Ellen von Unwerth; The Grand Couture Vogue Italia September 2010, M: Kristen McMenamy, P: Paolo Roversi, S: Edward Enninful ; Qvest, M: Lisette, P: TOMAAS, S: Carla Engler; C: imageamplified.com, fashiongonerogue.com, Hagio Moto

where your love took me to

blue blue eyes

white white lies

look

where your love took me to

blue blue sky

sweet sweet lies

where your love took me to

there is no you any more

your eyes

blue sky

white lies

sweet times

I'm lonely again

~~~

~Pola Chérie~

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fashiongonerogue, www.emreguven.com

Don't Give Up

Go where your life wants you to be

where your heart finds it's place

where your pain hears it's lullaby

where your eyes can see the sunrise

Even if you are alone

Even if you feel like

your existence is just a number

counted dead or alive

Don't tell me so

You have to live

I want you to live

Don't give up

I beg you

Live

for me

for the people who are waiting for you in the future

for the people who needs you to stand up for them

for the children who needs a protection

for the lonely chick which fell out from the nest

Live

There is a Future

Don't give up

Live

~Pola Chérie Don't Give Up (Pola for Japan)~

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Shades of Summer by Alex Freund, Models: Bekah Jenkins & Vanessa Milde; QVEST #44, Model: Merethe Hopland, Photographed by Jacob Sadrak, Styled by Cristian Temi; Vogue Paris December/January 2007.2008, Model: Isabeli Fontana, Photographed by Mario Sorrenti; Vogue Germany April 2011, Model: Britt Maren, Photographed by Claudia Knoepfel & Stefan Indlekofer, Styled by Nicola Knels; C: fashiongonerogue.com, fashioncopious.typepad.com

When You Are Gone

I wanted to go home

but there was no home

I called your name

but there was no answer

I tried to find you

but you were gone

Why did you leave me

When I love you so

~Pola Chérie When you are gone~

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Guy Bourdin Photography C: www.guybourdin.org

The piano

When I'm sad
I think of You

playing the piano for me

on lonely Christmas

When I'm sad

I stand near You

playing the piano for me

on snowy Winter



When I'm sad

I listen to You

playing the piano for me

on silent Night



When I am sad
When my dreams are broken
When my steps sink down
When stairs collapse

When I fall into the water

When the sirens stop

When I try to take a breath
one more time
but I can't

I think of You

playing the piano for me

on lonely Christmas


~Pola Chérie The piano~

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Samuji Fall 2011, Photographed by: Nina Merikallio, Model: Ellu Arula, Styled by: Minttu Vesala (fashiongonerogue.com)